It’s definitely time for another edition of currently—blog posts wherein I just give a random update on life because so much is going on and I can’t focus on any one particular topic right now.
My flowers. If you follow me on Instagram, you will have seen many photos of my first ever cut flower garden. I trialed a flower garden in about the last 25% of my veggie garden to see if I’d like it, and if it was worth the effort of watering and weeding it. The growing season isn’t even over, and the results and an overwhelming LOVE IT!!! I initially started to grow it because I have to buy flower bulbs every spring for our playschool’s fundraiser. I bought a LOT of bulbs that I was going to grow as annuals and I absolutely loved how they grew. I didn’t really think to grow a ‘cut’ flower garden, specifically, but I started following some avid flower gardeners and flower farmers and the more you cut, the more blooms you’ll get. Yes, they look pretty outside as it’s growing, but the flowers have brought me so much joy to grow them and to arrange them into bouquets and share with family and friends.
I started following Floret Farm on social media and bought her Cut Flower Garden book and I am truly obsessed. I am going to get Jay to till me up a flower garden(s) in the fall just to grow dahlias, zinnias, ranunculas and anemones (for now!).
Life. I won’t leave it so vague, and I haven’t shared this yet—not because I’m ashamed—I just haven’t experienced it long enough to write in depth about it yet. I’ve been on an anti-depressant for just over 3 weeks. As a nurse, I’ve known for a long time that anti-depressants don’t work right away. It takes awhile for the drug to build up and work in your system, generally a minimum of 2 weeks up to 4 weeks. I’ve never been on one before, but after talking with a really good girlfriend about her life-changing experience on it with similar symptoms that I have, I talked to my doctor about it to see if it would be a good fit for me.
I don’t know if the med is starting to work, if the placebo effect is happening, or if I’m just at a better place in life in general right now, but I truly do feel great. I feel like I can, and am, handling things better and with less anxiety. Anxiety has been by biggest symptom of ‘depression’ (I am not officially diagnosed, and I don’t consider myself clinically depressed), and I feel way less anxious about things. My anxiety often manifests as anger and even rage, and I don’t like myself when I act like that. I can run around on multiple errands with all 3 boys no problem, whereas not long ago there’s no way I would go out of my way to get extra stuff done. My house is clean and it’s staying that way and the clutter is at bay; that makes me feel so peaceful.
I took the big boys to their swimming lessons for 7 out of the 8 classes with Jonathan in tow, and they all really enjoyed themselves and Jonathan has been in a really good routine of coming home after and having a big 3 hour nap, it’s been wonderful. My sanity has even survived lack of sleep and night shift general night shift wonkiness. I see my doctor at the end of the month for a 6 week evaluation of this med and I will write about my experience thus far at that time.
Wrapping my head around being in full time harvest mode. We started harvest on July 31 and I was so not ready for it to start. I still had quite a few night shifts to contend with at the hospital and suddenly no child care. Luckily our babysitter was able to help out as well as my awesome sister-in-law Laura and my mom helped big time during my long weekend shifts. I am, however, in harvest mode now. All three combines were working on the yellow peas below our house and it’s been nice to not have to cook for 2 nights in a row and to enjoy the company of the harvest crew.
I’ve been keeping up with my garden and very thoroughly enjoying it. It’s so exciting and therapeutic to be in my garden.
Still Podcasts. Absolutely fascinated with all things true crime, as I have been for as long as I can remember. I’m an avid “murderino” and love the Podcast My Favorite Murder. If you can get around the very foul language, it’s an absolutely wonderful Podcast about all things murder and true crime. I finished my first book in years on vacation in BC and it was “The Stranger Beside Me” by Ann Rule, a book about Ted Bundy. Also watching True Detective on Netflix, another true crime show, surprise surprise!
My quiet evenings at home by myself. The older I get the more of an introvert I become. It suits my country/farm life perfectly and is a huge reason I love my night shifts. It’s my reward for single-parenting through harvest—I get quite hours every evening all to myself to watch whatever I want on Netflix! I miss my husband very much and cherish the rare evenings off he has due to rain, but I take my quiet time as a big silver lining of single parenting about 3 months every year.
Well, that’s all for now!