When there’s so much going on in life that I can’t pick one thing to write about, it’s time for a currently blog post.
Jonathan’s sleep. Though I know it does me no good. He, like his brothers before him, is sleep trained, but because he is working on so many milestones at once, he is having a hard time napping during the day and falling asleep at night. At least with all my experience and knowledge on sleep training, that’s what I’m chalking it up to. A vicious cycle of practicing his milestones when he should be napping and being so overtired at bedtime that he just can’t settle. He gets himself so worked up and cries so hard he can’t catch his breath. It’s heartbreaking and I don’t like it. If a baby is fussing and crying to settle themselves to sleep, it’s one thing. When they are worked up like Jonathan has been – it’s another, and I don’t feel comfortable leaving him like that.
We’ve been getting him up when he gets like that, the last 3 nights, and he just crawls around and plays in the living room with us. That seems to calm him down and tire him out. He’s been crawling and exploring more every day, going from crawling to sitting, to crawling, pulling up to his knees (and Jay says pulling up to his feet to stand, but I haven’t seen it yet!), and waving intentionally and eating more and more foods…it’s just a lot for a little guy to process, so I assume (and hope) that is what’s causing this major sleep regression. For the last 2 afternoons he was up about 2-2.5 hours between naps, I put him down and he just happily plays and sits up and looks at the camera instead of settling for a nap. The monitor goes quiet for about 5 minutes…and that’s it. I think he’s had two 5 minute naps the last 2 afternoons and has pretty much been awake 5+ hours which is WAY too much for a baby at 9.5 months of age.
I’ve been on high alert for ear infections and I was sure he was getting one at the beginning of the week, but luckily I’ve been wrong. He’s been so hard to settle at night though that I didn’t feel comfortable leaving him to go to an ag dinner I was invited to, but that’s okay. Family always comes first in this house. Babies are always phasey, so hopefully he gets himself out of this phase ASAP. I cannot remember the last time I just put him down for a nap or bedtime and he just quietly fell asleep. Maybe once in the last few weeks.
I’ve been taking little 4 and 6 hour shifts at work, and when I first started about a month ago…I was so not into it. Like really not into it, like I-don’t-want-to-work-here-anymore, not into it. I was worried and wondered what the heck I would do, because there really aren’t a lot of options for nurses when you live in a rural area. I recertified my ACLS course and worked a few more little shifts, have my confidence back, and luckily I am motivated and happy to be working again. I would never ever let my RN license go, but I am still feeling more called to be at home while these boys are so little. As I’ve said over the years – I’m so blessed to have a job where I can work as much or as little as I want (I’m employed on a casual/as needed basis) and there’s already less than 2 months left when I’ll be at home full-time for seeding and spraying season on the farm.
Also thinking about how I have started saying no to many blogging opportunities. One reason not taking campaigns that are not a good fit here (I turned down working with a brand on a bottle campaign because we don’t use bottles often for Jonathan) and two because I have to decide what is worth my time that I dedicate to working on a blog post. I put a LOT of time and effort into it, which is time away from my family and potential time away from actual paid opportunities at work. No need to name names, but I recently asked to be compensated for a product review (the product is <$50) and was essentially told no and that I was lucky to be offered this new product and the opportunity would be passed along to someone who appreciates it. Uhhh…. I literally cannot go to the grocery store and pay for my food in “opportunities”, or even worse “exposure”. I certainly have accepted products in exchange for reviews that have really helped my family and that we needed to purchase anyway, but the free product for posting a review days are coming to an end for me. It’s also not fair to the brands I work with that do pay me money for my hard work.
A lot of housework and finally keeping up with it. When my house is cluttered and messy, it’s a pretty accurate reflection of what I feel like inside my head. I’ve had to get used to a new normal since pregnancy and having Jonathan and being so incredibly busy with our trips to Edmonton -that it was impossible to keep my house as clean and as organized as I wanted to. Now I am finally in a good spot where I can keep up with laundry, make sure my kitchen and main living spaces are clean and tidy. It has truly cleared my head and made me so much happier and I can dedicate some more time to working on the computer and editing my photos without the guilt of housework pulling me away. I finally feel like I’m in a great, manageable time in my life with the kids, their school, activities and homemaking.
We cannot get enough of watching Last Man Standing on Netflix as it came recommended from a friend at Braden’s birthday supper. It started in 2011 and I don’t know how we missed starting this series. Sadly, but truthfully, we relate more with Tim Allan’s character than we do with his millenial daughters, which is why we like it so much!
I’m also addicted to Podcasts. I don’t ever turn on the radio anymore. I’ve always been fascinated with true crime, so I’ve been listening to season 2 of Someone Knows Something and Up & Vanished and I have a few other shows to start in my queue when those are done.
This month more so than last. The days are getting longer and the sun is up long before Braden gets on the bus at 7:45 AM and it sets after we get home from skating and hockey at 5:45. I feel happier in general seeing the sun out and seeing so much snow fall and then melt and bring warmer weather. I also have in mind that seeding and the busyness that that entails is around the corner and I’m mentally preparing for it. I am working a lot on myself and reconnecting with my Bible and that relationship I have been missing. Loving on my kids and my husband, using my camera as often as I can, as life is too short.
Have a great weekend and Family Day for my fellow Albertans.