It’s been a bit of a roller coaster of emotions and feelings as we await the arrival of our third baby due any day or any week now. Just like my pregnancy apps warn me: “You may start to feel anxious about your impending labor and delivery“. You think?! I’ve been wanting to feel as ignorant as I was before we had our first baby and the only thing keeping my anxious thoughts and fears at bay are by praying multiple times a day for God to take my anxieties away. He wants this for us (to take our anxieties away), it’s all over Scripture, and I read these verses whenever I need a reminder that God will provide for us — we need only pray and ask.
Luckily the anxiety isn’t taking over my life and my thoughts all the time, and certainly not as much in the beginning of this pregnancy, but every now and again they seep in. To be clear: I have never been diagnosed with anxiety, I know mine isn’t debilitating like it can be and I don’t want to downplay the seriousness of the disease, but I definitely have anxious thoughts and feelings. One of the things I tell myself in any situation, but especially since our miscarriage in July and my father-in-law sent me to the Psalms, in particular Psalm 139, is this which I’ve adapted from verse 16:
I cannot tell you how much comfort those words from Psalm 139 bring me. To know that God formed me exactly the way He intended to and has written my entire story before I was born? Wow. In the grand scheme of life, nevertheless what’s about to happen with the birth of our baby, it is so comforting to know that I am living the exact purpose in which God created me. Unbeknownst to me, Psalm 139 was my grandma’s favourite and it was shared at her funeral — another reason why I cling to those above words as if to tell myself in a more simple way: “don’t worry! God’s got this. This is exactly what He wants for you!”
I’m 39 weeks pregnant today, and as I shared in my 38 week update, I have felt significantly less anxious and worried than I did when I was in the 37th week of this pregnancy. Some of the things I remind myself of when I get anxious, other than Scripture I’ve shared already are:
- You’ve done this twice and you can do it again
- It will all be okay
- You get to live a new part of your life’s story and watch it unfold
- You get to meet your baby soon
And perhaps most importantly – you won’t be pregnant anymore!!! I had a rough few days where I was feeling so done about being pregnant, but I have generally enjoyed the end of this pregnancy very much. I’m also mentally prepared for the long run — potentially 2 more weeks. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and we can start that next, exciting chapter in our lives!
If you’re feeling a bit anxious at the end of your pregnancy, I hope this helps comfort you too, even a little bit!