I find often that people often paint their lives as a perfect picture on their blogs. I sure hope I don’t do that, but I also do confess I don’t share all my “dirty” secrets and tell the 100% truth of all the happenings in my life, because that’s just what it is…my life.
This one is hard for me to write, friends….but I’m hoping by momfessing, someone out there will have a solution for me. I even told Jay many times through this process, “don’t tell the bloggers! Don’t tweet this!” half-jokingly. Well, here it goes.
Why is this hard? Because I’m hard core. I got lots of “looks” like I was crazy for traveling all the way to Maui and using my cloth diapers. But I did it. I’m a dedicated cloth diapering mama and I didn’t really see it as that big of a deal. I was told “just use disposables, you’re on vacation, it doesn’t matter.” But it did matter to me! I had something to prove….to someone. But why??? I don’t even know! I was so proud of the fact that a disposable diaper hadn’t touched his butt since he was 1 month old and we switched to FuzziBunz full time. I was helping the environment, I had invested in my cloth anyway…so I wanted to use it and not waste my money on throw-away diapers. FuzziBunz even featured me on their Facebook page!
But…then I went to stay with my Mom where my Grandma used to live, I accidentally forgot to pack his nighttime diaper. I had just done laundry that morning, my night diapers take longer to dry, and I forgot to pack them. I didn’t have enough to double up a day diaper to work at night, which wouldn’t have worked anyway. So off to the drug store I went to buy my first disposables in 2 years. I felt so ashamed, so down on myself…but why? Why this immense pressure on myself to be the perfect cloth diapering mom?
So there you have it. I used a ‘sposie on Braden. And actually, I’ve done it 3 more times since we got home because his night diapers are DRIVING ME INSANE! I cannot, for the life of me, figure him out. He’s grown, his diapers don’t fit as well as they used to, he’s the superest soaker he’s ever been, and he leaks every.single.morning and the thing that bothers me most? His bum, groins, and bits are sore. They are red, spotted, and irritated from being soaked in urine all night. I used a disposable last night to give his bum a break, and it worked. His red bum is all gone. But he leaked out of that too!
So now I’m at a diapering crossroads. With potty learning looming in hopefully the next 2 months, I don’t know if I invest in more cloth diapers for nighttime…or just try a new ‘sposie that he won’t leak out of? I know that I need to start cutting down his liquids at bedtime too, for potty learning. I know he’s not supposed to get potty learning through the night for quite some time, but it wouldn’t hurt. The cloth diaperer in me says buy 2 new, fresh nighttime cloth diapers and try so you can say you did. I have been using my fleece covers at night, but they aren’t cutting it anymore. He’s soaking through that, his jammies, and his sleeping bag. I can use wool, it’s leak-proof, but another honest momfession? I hate how hard it is to keep clean. Who on earth hand washes ANYTHING these days? Yeah you only wash it like once every 2 weeks or as needed…but I can’t find the energy to wash the darn stuff.
As long as you’re nice, don’t point your virtual finger in my face and say “I told you so” I’m open to any and all constructive suggestions! (I’m not sure you know how hard this was for me to write…)
Cloth diapering moms, what’s your nighttime solution? Disposable-using moms, what’s your go-to diaper?